finals week has been slowly killing me. from last sunday to friday.. i've been running on 2-3 hours of sleep each night and if im lucky.. i would get no sleep. it really sucks. a lot. on top of that. i have to figure out what the hell is going to be happening next year and apt's and what not as well as moving out. shit! also. something really hit me today while i was showering. summer is so soon! and yet.. it seems so far.. but. for the first time today.. i felt the need to be excited about summer. the excitement of being able to be relax, be stressfree, with my grandparents, riko, and the babies.. is that ok to be extremely excited? i hope it is. because i need at least something to look forward to right? its too much here. its been hell actually. i realized that i dont even have time to go out to dinner sometimes because i have so much work.
i miss my parents..
my dog.
my house.
my grandparents..
everything that i basically left.
sometimes when i go back to japan, taiwan or sf.. i wonder why the hell i came to nyc anyways when i was already in such an amazing place.
le sigh* go figures. life goes on.
from being that finals week has being hell, my life lately has been totally unstable. I definately know that i have been acting up lately with my friends.. i've been off, i know. i think its due to mostly finals..
also i realized that they don't lie when they say the more you get to know one person... you kinda get to see their true colors. i've realized that about some people... and it questions my relationship with them and what it really comes down to. i guess i am just sick and tired of people whom i'm really close to lie to me. or also keep something from me.
back to homework.
peace, love, and orangina,
tiffa.
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